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........................................................................................................................02.07.26
forgot to pay my rent yesterday LOL whoops been a year and a month now since i last paid rent so i'm out of practice. not moving in yet because getting a job transfer is like pulling teeth but i have a lead on one that won't start til september. moving in august would be more ideal to avoid feeling like i'm wasting rent money but it's fine if it's all i can get.
been thinking about losing stuff today. recently my friend's band did a couple final gigs and i recorded a lot of them on my camera but 13 videos from one of the gigs somehow went missing from my memory card. i was going to make a youtube video for it and everything but now i'm too sad to even think about looking at what remains. it's weird because i feel like i've gotten a lot better at dealing with losing things and i definitely have, last year this would have left me a wreck, but i still felt that same tinge of anxiety and panic. it was almost nostalgic. i used to try and grip everything so tightly, to record everything, to keep full control over a life that i felt like was passing me by far too quickly, but finishing uni and moving home has slowed my life down a lot and helped me come to terms with the things outside of my control. i still don't like losing stuff though.
finished fixing up my bag while at my partner's house. sewed while they slept and was watching skurry play silksong which i really enjoyed. it felt nice to just exist in each others' presence. anyway my sewing work isn't as nice as ash's but it gets the job done and she gave me advice on how to make sturdier patch so hopefully it and all the others last.
new westside cowboy song!! i'm so excited for this album, even more so because it's going to be released on my birthday yay. i was listening to this while at work and realised i'd seen it live when i saw them open for geese. super cool.
forgot to pay my rent yesterday LOL whoops been a year and a month now since i last paid rent so i'm out of practice. not moving in yet because getting a job transfer is like pulling teeth but i have a lead on one that won't start til september. moving in august would be more ideal to avoid feeling like i'm wasting rent money but it's fine if it's all i can get.
been thinking about losing stuff today. recently my friend's band did a couple final gigs and i recorded a lot of them on my camera but 13 videos from one of the gigs somehow went missing from my memory card. i was going to make a youtube video for it and everything but now i'm too sad to even think about looking at what remains. it's weird because i feel like i've gotten a lot better at dealing with losing things and i definitely have, last year this would have left me a wreck, but i still felt that same tinge of anxiety and panic. it was almost nostalgic. i used to try and grip everything so tightly, to record everything, to keep full control over a life that i felt like was passing me by far too quickly, but finishing uni and moving home has slowed my life down a lot and helped me come to terms with the things outside of my control. i still don't like losing stuff though.
finished fixing up my bag while at my partner's house. sewed while they slept and was watching skurry play silksong which i really enjoyed. it felt nice to just exist in each others' presence. anyway my sewing work isn't as nice as ash's but it gets the job done and she gave me advice on how to make sturdier patch so hopefully it and all the others last.
new westside cowboy song!! i'm so excited for this album, even more so because it's going to be released on my birthday yay. i was listening to this while at work and realised i'd seen it live when i saw them open for geese. super cool.
........................................................................................................................29.06.26
oh my precious bag... i bought this bag on ebay in 2022 and it has been my main daily bag ever since. considering how much i use it, it's impressive it only started to fall apart around last year where one end of the strap meets the bag. this was fixed by my friend ash (peep the patch) but the back had more recently become compromised from rubbing against my leg as i walk. i tried to fix up the biggest hole but didn't do it securely enough to that's falling apart too. i'll be taking it back to ash today so she can put in some more lovely patches. this bag is so ragged though it's got so much rust and so many holes on the front from having badges constantly attached to it and being rained on and thrown around. but i will use it until it disintegrates.
here are the repairs as of today! ash was too tired to finish them (and tbf i wanted to go home and sleep too) so i'll be finishing up another day with some blue embroidery thread she gave me.
fancy that was my cd of choice for driving to and from the school i volunteer at today. for a while i've had this album associated with a rough time at the end of last year, but i've been feeling more confident latelyt and glad to be able to approach this album again and feel cunty while listening to it. girl like me has always been my favourite song too so i was very glad to see it finally get more attention with the new music video.
oh my precious bag... i bought this bag on ebay in 2022 and it has been my main daily bag ever since. considering how much i use it, it's impressive it only started to fall apart around last year where one end of the strap meets the bag. this was fixed by my friend ash (peep the patch) but the back had more recently become compromised from rubbing against my leg as i walk. i tried to fix up the biggest hole but didn't do it securely enough to that's falling apart too. i'll be taking it back to ash today so she can put in some more lovely patches. this bag is so ragged though it's got so much rust and so many holes on the front from having badges constantly attached to it and being rained on and thrown around. but i will use it until it disintegrates.
here are the repairs as of today! ash was too tired to finish them (and tbf i wanted to go home and sleep too) so i'll be finishing up another day with some blue embroidery thread she gave me.
fancy that was my cd of choice for driving to and from the school i volunteer at today. for a while i've had this album associated with a rough time at the end of last year, but i've been feeling more confident latelyt and glad to be able to approach this album again and feel cunty while listening to it. girl like me has always been my favourite song too so i was very glad to see it finally get more attention with the new music video.